A Note on Viewing…

Presented here are collaged pictures, which I have assembled from bits and pieces of other pictures gleaned from the Web, in an attempt to portray some of the Beauty and Energy present in my Inner Infolded Space. I am not saying they are Truth for anyone else’s Inner Space, just my own, a view through my eyes Into Me.

To view the art presented below this post in its intended order, please scroll down to the bottom entry ‘Blue Turtle Being’, and read up from there… or not, as you so choose, Sovereign Viewer…

Crystal Turtle Being, Guardian of Space/Void

Crystal Turtle Being is the expression in my Inner Space of my direct Uplink to First Source Energy as expressed in this particular dimensional Cosmos via its Site of First Appearance in this Universe. By means of Spirit-bilocation (a.k.a. Astral Travel), I have been privileged to actually go to the Site of First Appearance twice. ‘The Place’– as the many Beings I have met in Inner Space refer to it– is the site of an absolutely Consciousness-boggling and HUGE Temple, which is both Sacred Architecture and a Living Device in Which Prime Creative Mother-Father is Physically Present as Sentient Light. This Living Presence constantly produces Consciously-Awake Water for the Blessing and Sustenance of this Universe, and by means of the ‘Device-aspect’ of the Temple (which is in form like a Hindu Shikara-type ‘beehive’ of concentric, donut-shaped rings), the Light also ‘runs’ a system of instantaneous, energy-transport Stargate-like sites on many worlds throughout the Cosmos. The Place is also where Beings who are finished with needing physicality go when they ‘walk into the Rainbow Heart of Source’: for most of the wider Starfaring civilizations that share this Universe with us, the Rainbow Body of Tibetan Bonpo and/or Buddhist masters is Reality for each and every Being, whenever they decide they are finally ready. When they are, they make a Great Pilgrimage to First Place, and simply ’step into God’, body and all. I was privileged to be able to watch some Beings do this the first time I was allowed to visit The Place– I was allowed to walk with them down a miles-wide concourse, and I was also allowed to accompany them onto the main platform of the Temple-proper, but I was gently turned so that my back faced the Light by one of the Temple custodians (who himself came out of the Light to meet me) because as he said, ‘The Light has not Spoken to you yet’.

This first ‘Astral Visit’ to The Place was some four years ago in my current earth-life, and the Temple custodian showed me at that time how the Device worked as a Stargate. He also told me I would be back many more times, and that most of my later visits would be made ‘in the physical’, not simply as Inner Travel, as I would eventually serve as a custodian there with others from Earth when our people would be allowed to travel among worlds via the First Light.

It has been only recently, within the last two months, that I have made a ‘return trip’ to The Place. This time, when I got there, I was honored to receive a ‘First Speaking’ from Light: S/He embodied the form of a Great Turtle made entirely of golden Light, which grew Itself out of the confines of the Temple so that It approached me as I stood halfway down the huge causeway. The Turtle looked at me for a moment, and the Temple looked like a great Mountain carried on the Turtle’s back. Then the Turtle smiled at me, bowed Its Head to me when I bowed and said ‘Namaste’ to It, and then It suddenly ‘vaporized’ back into the hazy, rounded Light-form that normally ‘resides’ in the Temple/Device. The same Temple-custodian I saw on my previous visit was there, and he took me aside just before I was about to leave. He gave me a mantra to say that salutes the Light-Giving-Water-Presence in what he said was the language of the First Beings who helped Prime Creative Source ‘open this Cosmos’, and he gave me the name of Akkarri Nar’Dhul, which in the same language means ‘One-Who-Freely-Outpours’ (or ‘Limitless-Outpouring’) and ‘Jewel-Blood’, which he said was a ‘poetic kenning’ for Water among his own people. He also told me that the First People who helped Prime Creative Source open this dimension were Turtle-People, and so was he, but that his people were Second Turtles, not First Turtles. He then told me that I was related to ’several offspring-groups of his people’ who are known as Third Turtles. The ‘first’, ’second’ and ‘third’ designations have nothing to do with rank or development, they just indicate ‘progression in time through this Universe of the Family of Turtle-people’. Then he sent me back to my body and current Consensus Reality here on Earth.

I have told this Inner Experience not to induce belief in it, because it doesn’t matter to me whether or not anyone believes my Inner Reality or not. In fact, if you want to consider it gross psychiatric delusion, please go right ahead and do so. I convey it because 1) it was stunningly beautiful and full of wonderful energy that rightly belongs to every Being on this planet, and 2) it will be validation for anyone else who may have had a similar internal experience. I also had my own little validation when I looked up variants of the word ‘akkarri’ on the Internet: the female name ‘Kari’ in Turkish means ‘to pour water’, and the word ‘akarri’ in Ainu means ‘to outrun’…

So the Universe is a hologram inside of each one of us, and the iteration of the the First Dawning and the First Language that Praised the Birth whispers, sweetly repeating, inside of us.

I meditate on Crystal Turtle Being as First Light when I wish to transform Pride/Ego into Peace. I meditate on Crystal Turtle Being as Self when dealing with Grief.

Yellow Turtle Being, Guardian of Earth

Yellow Turtle Being is my Inner Guardian of the Earth Element. He is male, acting as my Earth energy-compliment ‘plug-in’ and Consort, and completes my Internal Divine Water Triad (see the explanation of the Energy-pattern of Water in the Blue Turtle Being entry at the bottom of this thread). He is the Template of my physiological boundary with regard to ‘otherness’, comprising my bodily immune-system, as well as physical individuation. Yellow Turtle Being is also the ‘physical autopilot’ which runs the baseline bodily functions of organs and nervous system, cell replication, etc., as well as being the ‘King of the Five Senses’ and of Instinct (the sub-senses).

Earth Turtle Being helps me to do some very interesting things in the physical world, like being able to pick the ripest watermelon or non-bitter cucumbers at the supermarket, by just ’sensing’ which one is ‘asking’ me to pick it up. I am also able to ‘feel’ energy (like the shell-boundaries in auras) with my hands, receive impressions of things at a distance (which in one case included finding a stolen item by simply going into Inner Space and asking the object itself to show me where it was), and to call rain (which usually occurs within 3 to 5 days of my ‘playing with a rainstick’, whether or not I am actively thinking about it raining while doing so).

Every human has unique Gifts, tied to physical embodiment and encoded in each individual’s Earth-energy, that will manifest unfailingly if invoked ‘for the good of All’. The only thing required is that the individual remain adequately ‘Centered in Earth’– which means firmly understanding that everyone has Gifts the equal of one’s own– at all times. ‘Climbing’ to personal glory on the fallen bodies (or purposefully stunted self-realization) of one’s fellow Beings is not a climb at all, but a fall into the depths due to severe soul-blindness. It’s bad karma, bad juju, and yet more repeat drudgery of ‘TheSameDamnedThing’ over and over, which is why I embrace my Earth Consort as a shaman, consciously moving away from what Consensus Reality currently says is possible.

[If I may be permitted a word to the Adepti here, I would like to say that it is my personal experience that leaving the choice of a physical sexual partner in the hands of one's Earth Guardian reaps big rewards. Besides freeing one of the new-agey obsession with 'soul mates' and 'twin flames', one can continue one's Work uninterrupted, as well as gaining the most incredible Earth-energy validation when a 'perfect' Partner shows up, seemingly out of nowhere...]

I meditate on Yellow Turtle Being as Elder Brother when I am seeking to transform Ignorance into Awareness. I meditate on Yellow Turtle Being as Consort when I am seeking to mediate (enhance, quell, redirect) sexual energy, and I meditate on Yellow Turtle Energy as Self when I am in need of physical stability/grounding.

Green Turtle Being, Guardian of Air/Mind

Green Turtle Being is my Internal Guardian of the element of Air, and by extension, of Mind. She is female, because I myself think of myself as female. She also manifests as Turtle because I myself am Turtle. Thus, I am in Harmony with my Mind Template, which helps to keep my thinking settled, deep and even.

It is a good idea for those who have a predisposition towards the shamanic and/or Magick in general to get their relationship with their Air Guardian straightened out. This is so that Mind is not working against her/him/self when one is engaged in other Magickal activity, and thus it won’t be acting to diminish the energy of any Working being undertaken. Also, since a well-defined Air Guardian stabilizes all other energies through thought-resonance, a Magia/Shaman/Witch/Priestess will require far less energy to produce a given result than someone not in Air-Synchrony. To put it in Wiccan terms, the lack of Air-stability is why some spellcasting falls flat on its face. The problem is not that the spell is insufficiently organized or badly enacted, but rather that the caster is literally ‘of Two Minds’, not having done the prerequisite Work of Alignment with the Air Guardian.

Good alignment with Air is also of importance in Works of Healing. Let us say, for example, I am performing a Healing for a female client. While the illness may require Soul Retrieval to cure, the Soul Retrieval will be less than effective if the client’s Mind Template is ‘out of kilter’. In a case like this, I would need to try to get the client to self-balance Air, otherwise their unacknowledged mentality may keep rejecting the Soul-parts no matter how many times one fetches them back.

It might be that the client is unable to join with/express her Female Air Guardian fully, or that the client is physically female but has male mental formatting in the guise of an unaccepted/unexpressed Male Air Guardian. [Note: The sexuality of the physical body is of limited importance in Inner Infolded Space, and is only partially useful as a mapping/organizing strategy there.] Another type of problem arises when the client is trying to use an energy as a Sponsor/Totem that isn’t actually the energy they are physically the most in agreement with. Situations such as these can cause major loss of energy-cohesion, but it is not my place to tell the client what to do. It would merely be my task to report my findings, and then to ask the client, ‘What do you want to do about settling this issue, and how would you like things to proceed?’ Because of suppressed concept-issues, the Air Guardian can be out-and-out terrifying to some people, especially if they have invested a lot of energy in thwarting the full expression of their Core Mind, for whatever reason. Patience is of vital importance in dealing with this kind of situation as a shaman, as is the firm understanding and acknowledgement of the Sovereignty of the client and her/his wishes, which is the guiding Principle of Healing.

I meditate on Green Turtle Being as Totem and Spirit Guide when I need to deal with feelings of Envy and/or Self-Pity, transforming them into Bliss. I meditate on Green Turtle Being as Self when I need to teach, to plan, or to verbalize/illustrate ideas, or to call to Mind thoughts which I may be actively supressing or avoiding.

Red Turtle Being, Guardian of Fire

Red Turtle Being is the Form that the energy that is usually thought of as ‘Fire’ (i.e., hot, burning, radiating, lightning-like, etc.) coalesces as in my Inner Space.  She manifests as female, because She is my Uplink to Creating Universal Energy, and Her femaleness mirrors my own, so that all incoming Energy, which She regulates, is correctly formatted for me.

While probably no one else would ever experience quite this type of Inner Turtle-Entity, the color associated with Her- a kind of scarlet/pink/magenta/ palette- seems to be a universal color shorthand used by a lot of very different ‘belief formats’ for energy that is in harmony with the expression of individuality: energy that is properly ‘adjusted’ for optimum human consumption/nourishment is frequently Seen as various shades of pink or magenta.  Because of this, it is also a color that is associated quite often with healing energy.   The wider aggregate of non-personified ‘Fire’ energy happens to manifest in my Inner Healing-Space as an Infinite Field of lupine-like flowers that are the same shade of pink as the background of the art shown above.

Further, I have found on a personal level that the plethora of ‘outside energies wanting in’– anything from the wraith-energy of unhappy dead relatives to the psychic garbage of others to collective manipulative thoughtforms– do not seem to be able to get through ‘Pinkness’, as the energy actively and utterly reorganizes the Otherness into something entirely in harmony with and beneficial to one’s own life-force.  Apparently, it works this way for everyone regardless of whether or not one even likes pink to begin with, though to the degree that one ‘can get one’s head around’ Pink is the degree to which one can remain free of ‘psychic sludge’ of various sorts.

I meditate upon Red Turtle Being as Elder Sister when I wish to transform Desire/Attachment into Generosity, and I meditate on Red Turtle Being as Self when I seek to heal the physical effects of illness in myself or others.

Blue Turtle Being, Guardian of Water

Blue Turtle Being (Blue Turtle Man) is my Inner uplink to the energy embodied in Water. He is male only because my own physicality is female with a female-to-male gender-bonding preference, and because the basic ‘propagation-template’ of Water-energy is sexual: one (female) oxygen atom-waveform coupled with two (male) hydrogen atom-waveforms, constantly switching hydrogen-bonds in an orgy of fluidity. This is a good thought to hold in mind the next time you take a ‘drink of plain old water’, and this is why both Sex and Water are Sacred and closely allied. This is also why it is fundamentally ethically improper to 1) dump unlimited amounts of pollutants into rivers and oceans, 2) ration or otherwise deny access to clean Water to any Being, 3) tell any other Water-utilizing Being what sort of sexual stereotype they ‘ought’ to manifest, and 4) provide either Water or Sex for monetary remuneration. Water is the First Generated Substance of the Prime Creative Mother-Father, and as such is the purest physical representation of Divine Form.

The next time you take a dump into your toilet, just remember you are shitting into God’s First Face. God is compassionately allowing you to do this because S/He understands that human beings are still so fundamentally Unaware of what they are doing that they cannot be held entirely Spiritually Responsible for their actions. The Lesson of God regarding Water is actually in the structure of Water and what It can and cannot provide: if we exceed the carrying/dispersing capacity of Water, an avatar of male pseudo-Divinity is not going to magickally arrive to save us. We will just die off because we have exceeded the capacity of the physical mechanism of God’s Sustenance of Creation; i.e. the Flow of Sentient Water throughout that Creation.

I meditate upon Water as Divine Consort when I need to transform Wrathful energy of any sort into Love. I meditate on Water as Self when I need to cleanse and/or heal my own energies. This is not to imply that anyone else need do the same, or see things in the same way– I am simply sharing my own Inner Perspective. But the Lesson of Water, as mentioned above, is equally binding on any Being that consumes/utilizes Water, as it is the Truth of Water, and has nothing to do with me personally. The only reason I know about it is because I am a Shaman/Priestess, and I understand that not only can I talk to Water, I have a responsibility to do so.