A Note on Viewing…

Presented here are collaged pictures, which I have assembled from bits and pieces of other pictures gleaned from the Web, in an attempt to portray some of the Beauty and Energy present in my Inner Infolded Space. I am not saying they are Truth for anyone else’s Inner Space, just my own, a view through my eyes Into Me.

To view the art presented below this post in its intended order, please scroll down to the bottom entry ‘Blue Turtle Being’, and read up from there… or not, as you so choose, Sovereign Viewer…

Crystal Turtle Being, Guardian of Space/Void

Crystal Turtle Being is the expression in my Inner Space of my direct Uplink to First Source Energy as expressed in this particular dimensional Cosmos via its Site of First Appearance in this Universe. By means of Spirit-bilocation (a.k.a. Astral Travel), I have been privileged to actually go to the Site of First Appearance twice. ‘The Place’– as the many Beings I have met in Inner Space refer to it– is the site of an absolutely Consciousness-boggling and HUGE Temple, which is both Sacred Architecture and a Living Device in Which Prime Creative Mother-Father is Physically Present as Sentient Light. This Living Presence constantly produces Consciously-Awake Water for the Blessing and Sustenance of this Universe, and by means of the ‘Device-aspect’ of the Temple (which is in form like a Hindu Shikara-type ‘beehive’ of concentric, donut-shaped rings), the Light also ‘runs’ a system of instantaneous, energy-transport Stargate-like sites on many worlds throughout the Cosmos. The Place is also where Beings who are finished with needing physicality go when they ‘walk into the Rainbow Heart of Source’: for most of the wider Starfaring civilizations that share this Universe with us, the Rainbow Body of Tibetan Bonpo and/or Buddhist masters is Reality for each and every Being, whenever they decide they are finally ready. When they are, they make a Great Pilgrimage to First Place, and simply ’step into God’, body and all. I was privileged to be able to watch some Beings do this the first time I was allowed to visit The Place– I was allowed to walk with them down a miles-wide concourse, and I was also allowed to accompany them onto the main platform of the Temple-proper, but I was gently turned so that my back faced the Light by one of the Temple custodians (who himself came out of the Light to meet me) because as he said, ‘The Light has not Spoken to you yet’.

This first ‘Astral Visit’ to The Place was some four years ago in my current earth-life, and the Temple custodian showed me at that time how the Device worked as a Stargate. He also told me I would be back many more times, and that most of my later visits would be made ‘in the physical’, not simply as Inner Travel, as I would eventually serve as a custodian there with others from Earth when our people would be allowed to travel among worlds via the First Light.

It has been only recently, within the last two months, that I have made a ‘return trip’ to The Place. This time, when I got there, I was honored to receive a ‘First Speaking’ from Light: S/He embodied the form of a Great Turtle made entirely of golden Light, which grew Itself out of the confines of the Temple so that It approached me as I stood halfway down the huge causeway. The Turtle looked at me for a moment, and the Temple looked like a great Mountain carried on the Turtle’s back. Then the Turtle smiled at me, bowed Its Head to me when I bowed and said ‘Namaste’ to It, and then It suddenly ‘vaporized’ back into the hazy, rounded Light-form that normally ‘resides’ in the Temple/Device. The same Temple-custodian I saw on my previous visit was there, and he took me aside just before I was about to leave. He gave me a mantra to say that salutes the Light-Giving-Water-Presence in what he said was the language of the First Beings who helped Prime Creative Source ‘open this Cosmos’, and he gave me the name of Akkarri Nar’Dhul, which in the same language means ‘One-Who-Freely-Outpours’ (or ‘Limitless-Outpouring’) and ‘Jewel-Blood’, which he said was a ‘poetic kenning’ for Water among his own people. He also told me that the First People who helped Prime Creative Source open this dimension were Turtle-People, and so was he, but that his people were Second Turtles, not First Turtles. He then told me that I was related to ’several offspring-groups of his people’ who are known as Third Turtles. The ‘first’, ’second’ and ‘third’ designations have nothing to do with rank or development, they just indicate ‘progression in time through this Universe of the Family of Turtle-people’. Then he sent me back to my body and current Consensus Reality here on Earth.

I have told this Inner Experience not to induce belief in it, because it doesn’t matter to me whether or not anyone believes my Inner Reality or not. In fact, if you want to consider it gross psychiatric delusion, please go right ahead and do so. I convey it because 1) it was stunningly beautiful and full of wonderful energy that rightly belongs to every Being on this planet, and 2) it will be validation for anyone else who may have had a similar internal experience. I also had my own little validation when I looked up variants of the word ‘akkarri’ on the Internet: the female name ‘Kari’ in Turkish means ‘to pour water’, and the word ‘akarri’ in Ainu means ‘to outrun’…

So the Universe is a hologram inside of each one of us, and the iteration of the the First Dawning and the First Language that Praised the Birth whispers, sweetly repeating, inside of us.

I meditate on Crystal Turtle Being as First Light when I wish to transform Pride/Ego into Peace. I meditate on Crystal Turtle Being as Self when dealing with Grief.

Yellow Turtle Being, Guardian of Earth

Yellow Turtle Being is my Inner Guardian of the Earth Element. He is male, acting as my Earth energy-compliment ‘plug-in’ and Consort, and completes my Internal Divine Water Triad (see the explanation of the Energy-pattern of Water in the Blue Turtle Being entry at the bottom of this thread). He is the Template of my physiological boundary with regard to ‘otherness’, comprising my bodily immune-system, as well as physical individuation. Yellow Turtle Being is also the ‘physical autopilot’ which runs the baseline bodily functions of organs and nervous system, cell replication, etc., as well as being the ‘King of the Five Senses’ and of Instinct (the sub-senses).

Earth Turtle Being helps me to do some very interesting things in the physical world, like being able to pick the ripest watermelon or non-bitter cucumbers at the supermarket, by just ’sensing’ which one is ‘asking’ me to pick it up. I am also able to ‘feel’ energy (like the shell-boundaries in auras) with my hands, receive impressions of things at a distance (which in one case included finding a stolen item by simply going into Inner Space and asking the object itself to show me where it was), and to call rain (which usually occurs within 3 to 5 days of my ‘playing with a rainstick’, whether or not I am actively thinking about it raining while doing so).

Every human has unique Gifts, tied to physical embodiment and encoded in each individual’s Earth-energy, that will manifest unfailingly if invoked ‘for the good of All’. The only thing required is that the individual remain adequately ‘Centered in Earth’– which means firmly understanding that everyone has Gifts the equal of one’s own– at all times. ‘Climbing’ to personal glory on the fallen bodies (or purposefully stunted self-realization) of one’s fellow Beings is not a climb at all, but a fall into the depths due to severe soul-blindness. It’s bad karma, bad juju, and yet more repeat drudgery of ‘TheSameDamnedThing’ over and over, which is why I embrace my Earth Consort as a shaman, consciously moving away from what Consensus Reality currently says is possible.

[If I may be permitted a word to the Adepti here, I would like to say that it is my personal experience that leaving the choice of a physical sexual partner in the hands of one's Earth Guardian reaps big rewards. Besides freeing one of the new-agey obsession with 'soul mates' and 'twin flames', one can continue one's Work uninterrupted, as well as gaining the most incredible Earth-energy validation when a 'perfect' Partner shows up, seemingly out of nowhere...]

I meditate on Yellow Turtle Being as Elder Brother when I am seeking to transform Ignorance into Awareness. I meditate on Yellow Turtle Being as Consort when I am seeking to mediate (enhance, quell, redirect) sexual energy, and I meditate on Yellow Turtle Energy as Self when I am in need of physical stability/grounding.

Green Turtle Being, Guardian of Air/Mind

Green Turtle Being is my Internal Guardian of the element of Air, and by extension, of Mind. She is female, because I myself think of myself as female. She also manifests as Turtle because I myself am Turtle. Thus, I am in Harmony with my Mind Template, which helps to keep my thinking settled, deep and even.

It is a good idea for those who have a predisposition towards the shamanic and/or Magick in general to get their relationship with their Air Guardian straightened out. This is so that Mind is not working against her/him/self when one is engaged in other Magickal activity, and thus it won’t be acting to diminish the energy of any Working being undertaken. Also, since a well-defined Air Guardian stabilizes all other energies through thought-resonance, a Magia/Shaman/Witch/Priestess will require far less energy to produce a given result than someone not in Air-Synchrony. To put it in Wiccan terms, the lack of Air-stability is why some spellcasting falls flat on its face. The problem is not that the spell is insufficiently organized or badly enacted, but rather that the caster is literally ‘of Two Minds’, not having done the prerequisite Work of Alignment with the Air Guardian.

Good alignment with Air is also of importance in Works of Healing. Let us say, for example, I am performing a Healing for a female client. While the illness may require Soul Retrieval to cure, the Soul Retrieval will be less than effective if the client’s Mind Template is ‘out of kilter’. In a case like this, I would need to try to get the client to self-balance Air, otherwise their unacknowledged mentality may keep rejecting the Soul-parts no matter how many times one fetches them back.

It might be that the client is unable to join with/express her Female Air Guardian fully, or that the client is physically female but has male mental formatting in the guise of an unaccepted/unexpressed Male Air Guardian. [Note: The sexuality of the physical body is of limited importance in Inner Infolded Space, and is only partially useful as a mapping/organizing strategy there.] Another type of problem arises when the client is trying to use an energy as a Sponsor/Totem that isn’t actually the energy they are physically the most in agreement with. Situations such as these can cause major loss of energy-cohesion, but it is not my place to tell the client what to do. It would merely be my task to report my findings, and then to ask the client, ‘What do you want to do about settling this issue, and how would you like things to proceed?’ Because of suppressed concept-issues, the Air Guardian can be out-and-out terrifying to some people, especially if they have invested a lot of energy in thwarting the full expression of their Core Mind, for whatever reason. Patience is of vital importance in dealing with this kind of situation as a shaman, as is the firm understanding and acknowledgement of the Sovereignty of the client and her/his wishes, which is the guiding Principle of Healing.

I meditate on Green Turtle Being as Totem and Spirit Guide when I need to deal with feelings of Envy and/or Self-Pity, transforming them into Bliss. I meditate on Green Turtle Being as Self when I need to teach, to plan, or to verbalize/illustrate ideas, or to call to Mind thoughts which I may be actively supressing or avoiding.

Red Turtle Being, Guardian of Fire

Red Turtle Being is the Form that the energy that is usually thought of as ‘Fire’ (i.e., hot, burning, radiating, lightning-like, etc.) coalesces as in my Inner Space.  She manifests as female, because She is my Uplink to Creating Universal Energy, and Her femaleness mirrors my own, so that all incoming Energy, which She regulates, is correctly formatted for me.

While probably no one else would ever experience quite this type of Inner Turtle-Entity, the color associated with Her- a kind of scarlet/pink/magenta/ palette- seems to be a universal color shorthand used by a lot of very different ‘belief formats’ for energy that is in harmony with the expression of individuality: energy that is properly ‘adjusted’ for optimum human consumption/nourishment is frequently Seen as various shades of pink or magenta.  Because of this, it is also a color that is associated quite often with healing energy.   The wider aggregate of non-personified ‘Fire’ energy happens to manifest in my Inner Healing-Space as an Infinite Field of lupine-like flowers that are the same shade of pink as the background of the art shown above.

Further, I have found on a personal level that the plethora of ‘outside energies wanting in’– anything from the wraith-energy of unhappy dead relatives to the psychic garbage of others to collective manipulative thoughtforms– do not seem to be able to get through ‘Pinkness’, as the energy actively and utterly reorganizes the Otherness into something entirely in harmony with and beneficial to one’s own life-force.  Apparently, it works this way for everyone regardless of whether or not one even likes pink to begin with, though to the degree that one ‘can get one’s head around’ Pink is the degree to which one can remain free of ‘psychic sludge’ of various sorts.

I meditate upon Red Turtle Being as Elder Sister when I wish to transform Desire/Attachment into Generosity, and I meditate on Red Turtle Being as Self when I seek to heal the physical effects of illness in myself or others.

Blue Turtle Being, Guardian of Water

Blue Turtle Being (Blue Turtle Man) is my Inner uplink to the energy embodied in Water. He is male only because my own physicality is female with a female-to-male gender-bonding preference, and because the basic ‘propagation-template’ of Water-energy is sexual: one (female) oxygen atom-waveform coupled with two (male) hydrogen atom-waveforms, constantly switching hydrogen-bonds in an orgy of fluidity. This is a good thought to hold in mind the next time you take a ‘drink of plain old water’, and this is why both Sex and Water are Sacred and closely allied. This is also why it is fundamentally ethically improper to 1) dump unlimited amounts of pollutants into rivers and oceans, 2) ration or otherwise deny access to clean Water to any Being, 3) tell any other Water-utilizing Being what sort of sexual stereotype they ‘ought’ to manifest, and 4) provide either Water or Sex for monetary remuneration. Water is the First Generated Substance of the Prime Creative Mother-Father, and as such is the purest physical representation of Divine Form.

The next time you take a dump into your toilet, just remember you are shitting into God’s First Face. God is compassionately allowing you to do this because S/He understands that human beings are still so fundamentally Unaware of what they are doing that they cannot be held entirely Spiritually Responsible for their actions. The Lesson of God regarding Water is actually in the structure of Water and what It can and cannot provide: if we exceed the carrying/dispersing capacity of Water, an avatar of male pseudo-Divinity is not going to magickally arrive to save us. We will just die off because we have exceeded the capacity of the physical mechanism of God’s Sustenance of Creation; i.e. the Flow of Sentient Water throughout that Creation.

I meditate upon Water as Divine Consort when I need to transform Wrathful energy of any sort into Love. I meditate on Water as Self when I need to cleanse and/or heal my own energies. This is not to imply that anyone else need do the same, or see things in the same way– I am simply sharing my own Inner Perspective. But the Lesson of Water, as mentioned above, is equally binding on any Being that consumes/utilizes Water, as it is the Truth of Water, and has nothing to do with me personally. The only reason I know about it is because I am a Shaman/Priestess, and I understand that not only can I talk to Water, I have a responsibility to do so.

Talking With Turtle-Beings…

Perhaps a month ago, I was reading an article about a prehistoric creature called Henodus Chelyops in a back-issue of National Geographic.  Paleontologists describe it as a ‘turtle-like creature’, and do not consider it a ‘true turtle’ (although it looked and lived like one) because of some anatomical indicators that indicate it was a member of a different class of prehistoric reptiles than the one that gave rise to the grouping of creatures we call turtles today.

As I was reading about Henodus, I started to get what I amusedly refer to as ‘Incoming Call’ flashes from Inner-Infolded-Infinite-Space.  The flashes consisted of a quick image of Henodus, followed by an equally quick picture of the face of a male Being who himself looked like a turtle crossed with a human.  He was smiling and shaking his head, and although he did not speak words, I understood clearly that he was telling me that what I had just read was in some way incorrect, and that he wanted to talk to me about this.

After I finished with my day and was able to sit in meditation for awhile, I went to my Inner Healing Space.  Sure enough, there was the Being, smiling and waiting to talk with me.  We went into a stupa-like Temple that is in my Healing Space (and that is a Port within it for accessing a whole spectrum of Healing Energy) and sat down on the Temple floor to talk…

Being: It is delightful to see you, Akkarri.

Me:  It is very nice to see you, too.  I heard you earlier, and I knew that you wanted to talk with me.

Being:  Yes, I wanted to tell you something about what you read, but I first want to tell you that You are Turtle.

Me:  I think I understand… Is this because I have Turtle as my totem? Something like a natural affinity for the energy?

Being:  That is not what I mean.  You are literally a Turtle, as a human would understand literally being something. But you are a Turtle who has chosen to wear a human shape for awhile.  That is why you see Turtles all the time when you enter Within.  They are your Family, coming to help you.  Your People and your own Origin as a Being are not earth-human, although you have spent a lot of time exploring the form.

Me:  Okay, then I guess I haven’t been understanding the whole ‘Totem/Spirit Guide’ thing correctly.

Being:  It is more that you just need to be clear about how Living Energy manifests.  All Beings arise out of Something that, for the purposes of explanation, can be visualized as a rainbow pool of energy.  ‘Turtle’ is a ‘color’ in the pool.  The turtle ‘color’ creates the bodily form of the Beings that spring from it, and the Beings feed back resonance into it, so that within the main ‘color’ Turtle, there is another rainbow composed of Turtle variations and developments.  It doesn’t matter where the ‘color’ Turtle manifests anywhere in space-time, any more than it does when you, as an artist, create an image of Turtle.  Your image will follow the Turtle-form and be recognized as ‘Turtle’, whether you make it out of clay, paint it on a rock, embroider it on a piece of cloth with thread, or make it out of silver and wear it as a Jewel.  This is where the limited point of view of those who were looking at the Being they call Henodus is apparent: Henodus was Turtle, and arose from the ‘Turtle Rainbow’.  There are Beings throughout the Cosmos, on many, many worlds, that are Turtle, and would be instantly recognized as such by the people living on your current world.  Humans would see these life-forms and say, ‘Oh look!  It’s a turtle, and here, on this far-away planet, of all places!’  Of course, current human-based science would insist that such Beings were not ‘true turtles’, which is analogous to saying that, among your artistically-made turtles, only the embroidered ones are actually ‘real turtles’.  All the other ones– the one of clay, the one painted on a rock, and the one made of silver– ‘only look like turtles, but aren’t really turtles’.  This view is both arbitrary and incorrect.

Me:  So Henodus was Turtle, despite the ‘genetic media’ used to make the turtle-shape it had.

Being:  Yes.

Me: Well, then why don’t I look Turtle-like if this is my ‘color’?

Being:  Let’s go back to the Turtle Rainbow within the ‘color’ Turtle.  As Beings of the original Turtle-color manifest Turtle, they expand the Turtle Rainbow.  Turtle was one of the first Colors in the original Rainbow Pool of Energy– even on your current planet, Turtle is a very, very old form.  This means the ‘Turtle Rainbow’ is very developed, and has expressed more of its ‘colors’.  To use another analogy, it is like a flower that is open in full bloom, rather than a flower-bud.  And when a flower opens all the way, what does it do?

Me:  It is the reproductive organ of a plant, so it makes pollen and/or seeds.

Being:  And does the flower keep all its pollen to itself?

Me:  No, usually, it is best for the flower to spread pollen to other flowers, so that their seeds will be strong from shared genetic resources.  So what you are saying is that I am essentially ‘Turtle-pollen’ that has been spread to a Human ‘flower’?

Being:  Yes.

Me:  But doesn’t that ‘mess up’ the Human flower?

Being:  Go back to the flower analogy again.  Both the Turtle Rainbow and the Human Rainbow are Flowers that have sprung from the same Seed– the original Rainbow Pool of Energy.  Also remember I have been using the analogy of rainbows and color to describe ‘Turtle’ and ‘Human’.  You are a ‘Bearer of Turtle’ to Human-ness because it is energetically appropriate that this can happen.

Me:  So it is a case of the Turtle-flower being, say, a yellow variety of rose, and the Human-flower being a pink rose: they can in fact share pollen.

Being:  Yes, but remember the flower analogy is limited somewhat.  With regard to earth-flowers, pollen is shared and goes on to produce seeds, which produce other individual plants that express the mixing of parentage in their flower colors.  This analogy breaks down with regard to what we are calling the Turtle-Rainbow-Flower and the Human-Rainbow-Flower, as the ‘pollen-exchange’ is done to affect the flower receiving the pollen and to enhance and improve the ‘receiving’ flower’s development.  It isn’t about producing seeds, and so on.  The flower analogy in this regard is inexact.

Me:  But that leads me back to ‘messing up’ the Human flower– the way you describe things, a lot of ‘Turtle-pollen’ could do that.

Being:  Yes, which is why only a little ‘Turtle-pollen’ has been allowed into the Human flower.  Turtle-pollen has just been used to awaken the Human flower to the idea that it is sufficiently opened to the point where it can now begin to ‘accept pollen’.

Me:  In other words, the Human flower can direct its own development by deciding what pollen it will accept?

Being:  Yes.  Turtle-pollen, such as you are yourself, is both restrained and trustworthy.  You can be counted on to just deliver the message that it is time for the flower to start figuring out how it wants to change itself and grow, without insisting that the Human flower needs to ‘become Turtle’.

Me:  How do I do that?  I mean, without getting anything I might share turned into yet another cage with religious bars?

Being (laughing):  Your reticence does you credit, Akkarri, and is so very Turtle!  I am happy we are Flower-kin.  To help you find the answer to your query, I will pose another: What do the Turtles you see here, in your Internal Space, do with you when they come to visit you?

Me:  Oh, They are wonderful!  They have taken me on their backs to many Places, and have brought me energy when I have needed it.  In turn, I have tried to give energy back to them, by making water, food and flower-offerings to them, for their health and well-being, and to help keep my connection with them strong.  I also try to mirror their generosity and patience, and I behave that way towards others.  I know that it is good for me and my development as a Being to have this kind of attitude.

Being:  Good.  Now, have you ever seen Turtles, out in the everyday environment of your planet, with other things resting on their shells?

Me:  Yes.  I have seen photos of Turtles with everything from leaves and flowers to frogs, pebbles, birds and even other smaller Turtles sitting on their shells, and I have seen live Turtles carrying around clumps of mud and water grasses.

Being:  Do the Turtles seem to have cared about what was sitting on their shells?

Me:  No, the ones I saw seemed pretty intent on just going about their own business, irrespective of what was perched on their backs.

Being:  Can you offer to others in the same way that Turtles offer their backs?

Me:  You mean without particularly caring about what use is made of what I offer, or whether or not what I offer is accepted?

Being:  Yes.

Me:  I think so.

Being:  Good.  Just remember that though the Turtle’s shell can be really useful to a frog seeking a place to sit and look for insects, it is first and foremost there to be of use to the Turtle.

Me:  Meaning that I actually develop others simply by demonstrating that I am capable of developing myself?

Being:  That is precisely it.  In fact, there is no other way to do it, since it is basically impossible for the Turtle to coerce the frog into sitting on its back.  It’s the frog’s decision whether or not to take advantage of the Turtle’s Shell.

Me:  And the Turtle’s ‘offer’ is essentially the byproduct of it manifesting a Shell in the first place.

Being:  Yes.  If you keep this firmly in mind, you will take no harm and your development will aid and assist many other Beings.  Also bear in mind that you are Loved greatly by your Turtle-Flower-kin.  Recalling this adds immeasurably to your own Offering.

Me:  Thank you for the reminder.

Being:  You are most welcome, Akkarri.

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One thing only will I add as postscript to this– everyone who lives and breathes has direct access within themselves to the Teachers, Teachings and all the information each individual needs to fully unfold and develop her- or himself.  The Truest Love and the Highest Wisdom are inside of You, ready to be expanded in blossoming expression.  So…

WHAT IN THE NAME OF THE SEVEN HELLS AND THE SEVEN HEAVENS ARE YOU WAITING FOR, AND WHY ARE YOU UNWILLING TO GIVE YOUR OWN INFOLDED TRUTH AND LIGHT THE PRIORITY THEY DESERVE?

Compare and Contrast

Compare and contrast the following:

(1)

Our Father,
Who art in heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy kingdom come,
Thy Will be done
On earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day
Our daily bread,
And forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
Lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil,
For Thine is the Kingdom
And the Power and the Glory,
Amen.

(2)

Radiant First Turtle Mother,
Who art present everywhere,
Hallowed be Thy Light.
Thy Love doth flow
Above, below,
In the Waters of Earth and in Heaven.
Give us each day
That we, in turn, may give,
And help us to be inwardly tolerant
Despite external intolerance.
Show us our own Goodness
And help us to manifest generosity and abundance for all,
For Thou art Source, and Sustenance,
And Peace, and Awareness.
Amen.

Neither one of these two statements are prayer in the active sense of actual, immediate interface with Spirit, but as a Magickal template for creating a desired effect upon Reality, the second template far superior to the first. That this is in fact true can be seen from simple observation of the state of general consensus-Reality around us, which has arisen in large part due to incessant fixation on the first of the two templates given above. I, on the other hand, have chosen to utilize the second of the two templates as my Reality-generator, and the result has been personal well-being, even in the face of consensus-Reality mayhem.

This is in a nutshell how Magick works.

Rote ‘prayer’ is the Reality-driver of organized religion and its agendas, and is actually a form of Witchcraft.

Have the courage to come up with your own Reality-templates, and make your own Magick.